“Why didn’t you come earlier and inform me about her situation?”
“I was settling myself, Kartavya.”
“How have you been managing everything and taking care of her in these times I am unable to understand… you could have just called me. Together we could have visited and checked all Hospitals and Doctors.”
“It’s not that easy for me, Kartavya. You know it. I am shattered. She is my life… My breath.”
“Oh! Aum.”
“When did you get to know this?”
“Only when I came here. She didn’t call me and inform me. She knew I would come home.”
“I felt the eeriness at the home. A kind of enigmatic silence difficult for me to inhale. I heard puling and sobs and then there was this noise of retching and incessant vomits.”
“Ah! Aum.”
“When I entered the room she was lying feeble and meek. Eyes lifeless. Face haggard. Body fragile and lean. Inside blanket she was wrapped like a body dead. I cried and then hugged her. Sat by her side throughout the night. Took her whenever she felt to go to loo for vomits and remembered nights when she sat by my side to scribble when I had my exams…my fevers…and then alone I would spent nights when she would be absorbed in her work.”
“Did you happen to see the reports?”
“Yes…in those hours just checked all her MRI and PET Scan reports. My tears and nervousness didn’t allow me to understand what all was prescribed and written in those.”
“Why did this happen to her, Kartavya? Could you answer?”
“How can I answer this, Aum? All I know is… it’s part of our evolutionary process …each one of us has to go through …We all are born one day and die, the other day, in-between is the life, lessons and our individual quest and journey to know and realize our true self…And once these lessons are over and journey completes…A cause for entry to the next way, the next door…and here you are with her again for a new journey….”
“Hmm… Kartavya. Right you are!”
Aum picked up his diary and then started with his compose…
She of today
She of past
I am with her
In now
Till last
Smile I
Cry I
With her
I am
Now
Dear pratibha…
May be there was some anexiety in the heart so while moving ahead towards office, I opened this blog to read. The article made me nostalgic in many ways. Who can understand better than you?
Yes! This is life ; the journey between birth and death but the acceptance takes time to come.
Thanks for putting your feeling , my feeling , our feeling here. It’s same for everyone.
Loads of love and prayers my dearie 🥰